There will always be the ones I didn't get to hold.

Angel Day - Caelan 4/21/98

Heavy heart. Not just my angel, but another's. A 3rd grader at my children's school was killed in a house fire yesterday along with his adult sister and 16 month old cousin. How do you explain what makes no sense when they ask why?

"Be kind, for everyone is fighting a hard battle."
~Plato~

Mummers' Dance

I'm totally addicted to online karaoke now.

Angel

I was always going to sing to all of my babies .. .

I Dreamed a Dream

"But the tigers come at night,
With their voices soft as thunder;
As they tear your hopes apart,
As they turn your dream to shame."
-Les Miserables-

Little angel, begun and not finished - you were always wanted. We would have had a beautiful life. For now, you will remain a beautiful dream.

~i~ Zach 6/3/95 ~i~

Caelan - April 21, 1998

another pair of tiny hands
to lay beneath the clay
slumbering little baby eyes
to wake another day
oh god of heav'n, come guard this bed
and let this angel sleep
'til earth is pure for tiny hands
and safe for tiny feet

a wondrous little baby smile
the hope of things to be
born to face the troubled world
for a moment and then set free
oh god of heav'n, take hate from man
'til lambs and lions feed
and make earth pure for tiny hands
and safe for tiny feet

tiny hands
angel hands
perfect hands
blamless hands
lifeless hands
resting in the night
waiting for the light
when life will follow

oh god of heav'n, send christ again
bringing his reign of peace
let earth turn pure for tiny hands
and safe for tiny feet

then give back my child to me

~Kenneth Cope "Tiny Hands"~