Saturday, June 14, 2008

Might As Well Be Walking on the Sun . ..

Next Lupron shot is scheduled for Tuesday. I am beset with constant hot flashes - so much so the last few days I feel like I might spontaneously combust. And while a summer long Lupronfest is not exactly what I am looking forward to (hot flashes in the Missouri heat and humidity? Can we we say parrrr - TAY!) - saying sayonara to the endo pain and mess isn't completely a bad trade-off. We also scheduled an appt for the same time as the injection to discuss THE next step - which is the hysterectomy in the fall. The thought fills me with a sense of relief that perhaps an end to the pain is in sight - but at the same time it feels like another huge crevice has opened up at my feet. My emotions are in a turmoil - a hot swirling whirl of anxiety, sadness, relief, excitement, discouragement and wanting to just get it over with so I can start getting on with it.

4 comments:

Still Standing Strong in A Bloom of Hope. said...

i was told about 2 months ago that they suspected that i had endo and my world fell apart..:( I am still trying to deal with my emotions..somedays they're good and somedays, i get very irrational and cry over nothing.

there's no winning with me these days. :(

sorry, i should say something positive to you...just wanted to say that i understand the emotional feelings that you're feeling and am giving you a hug... we'll get there...we will.

loribeth said...

I'm no good at major life transitions either. Just wanted to send you some cyber(((hugs))).

Mrs. Spit said...

Hugs sweetie. Sorry my stern talking to your uterus didn't work. . . .

Praying for wisdom and comfort for you.

Meg said...

Ugh, those hot flashes are no fun when it's hot and humid out. I hope they magically lessen with the second shot.

I'm glad to hear that the catheter wasn't too bad and thank you for the suggestions on what to take to the hospital with me. I didn't even think of leaving a pillow in the car but I will definetly put one in there.